Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Workin' on it

I'm having a hard time with this space here.  This blank white page with the blinking cursor.  There is so much going on "behind the scenes" and I'm not sure if I can share it.  I'm not sure I can without being labeled an "oversharer".

Here's the lowdown:

We might sell the house.  We might not.  We've lost all our equity in the house plus some.  If we sell it, we'll owe on it.  A lot. That sucks.

So...I'm looking for a job.

Subsequently, I am looking for childcare for Noah and it's breaking my heart into a million pieces.

I am really good at staying home with Noah, I may go so far as to say I love it more than most anything, and I don't want to give it up.

But I have to give it up.

I'm also a really super employee so if you know anyone who is looking, let me know.  I work hard for my money, honey.

However, there is not enough wine in the world to make me content with this decision.

Life gets hard, sometimes.  I think now would be a good time to get a break.

(P.S. We were in Arizona visiting my grandparents last weekend so I have fun pics of the kid in a cowboy hat coming, for those two people who are desperate for baby pics, HILARY and MOM.  Reeeee-lax, wouldya?)


k said...

Oh, Sara. I'm sorry that you have to work when you'd rather stay home. My hope is that you find childcare for Noah that makes him happy and, in turn, makes this the slightest bit easier for you.

SeriousMom said...

I was in your position last year. My kids were a little older (7&8) so I didn't hav e to worry about daycare, but I hated not being there when they got home.

Anne said...

I'm so sorry you're having to give up something so dear to you. Hopefully there will be some unexpected happiness found (new friends from daycare for Noah? new friends from work for you?). I'll be thinking of you.

bessie.viola said...

Hugs. I'm so sorry that this is happening. I am working when all I want to do in the world is stay home, and it is hard. I know how you're feeling, and you're right - there is not enough wine in the world.

You know I'm here to listen, though, if you ever need an ear. xoxo

samantha said...

I'm here whenever you need me.


Paige said...

I, too, am working, and I fantasize daily about being laid off and getting to stay home with my baby. You're right - there's not enough wine in the world to make it okay.