Oh! And let's not forget ANY television show that deals with a child being injured, ill, or, god forbid, DYING. I'm looking at YOU Private Practice and Dr. Addison Montgomery (that is such a soap opera name, no?). And it seems that late at night, I end up reading blogs and posts about parents who have lost a child or a child that has lost a parent and AHHHHHHH! How I find these, and why only in the darkest hours of the day, I cannot explain. That's when Tim has to hold me back from scooping up my sleeping baby and promising him I will keep him safe forever and ever, amen. End result is waking the baby and causing myself more tears and it seems I have a problem with wanting to snuggle my child WHEN HE IS SLEEPING. I hope he doesn't mind if I do that when he's a teenager.
I hope I get better and soon. This up and down, in and out is driving me insane. Literally.